I want to make sure I read your message with comprehension and clarity, Do I understand that you are happy to be move but in the case of staying in your home town or in Thailand it would actually be better because you would be close to your family? I have thought about these things as well. I am also not sure about the place of birth that in which I was to be the father of a child would be the best place....In these situations one has to think not only about each other but also about the future of the child that has a full life in front of them....sadly I lost my Mother just under 2 years ago. She was a very lovely and thoughtful woman. She was always very kind. Losing her was a very big loss and very unexpected for myself and for what was left of the family. Now my father. now my father is alive though I rarely see him. he lives in California in the southern area or in Texas. I am never quite sure where he is...but if I were to have a child I would want him or her to meet their Grandfather. And I can understand how you would surely feel the same way as well. I am sure you have a very lovely family. Too bad we can't just meet up for a bit to eat or an evening out. But you never know. I think at some point that the people in which enter the marriage must build a new family in itself...this does not mean they turn away from the old...in fact they honor where they have came from...but at the same time I think it is smart to build a very solid and forever bond to ensure that the future be built on a strong foundation. I have a good conscious though I my not be especially religious I also know the good that can come from having good beliefs as well. I see that you have checked Budhist/Taoist, You might be surprised that as a child I was very interested in many beliefs. I read many books and studied different beliefs including Buddhism, Zen and other metaphysical based ideals. My Mother was raised as a "Christian Scientist" (NOT Scientologist) Yes, I went to church with my Mother for many years and learned to see how important it is to have a pure and beautiful picture of one another in our minds. but at the same time when she was challenged by a condition that could have been taken care of it still makes my cry to think she would not allow herself to be treated by a doctor....even with my support as I have myself had to see doctors on certain occasion and know that they can be both good and sometimes they are not so smart. At the same time I was being raised by my Stepfather in which finally passed away from Alzheimer's. My StepFather was about 20 years older than my mother. I have one brother and two sisters that are his children, After the death of my Mother my brother and the youngest sister no longer are speaking with me. it was a very tough few years. I do believe it is time to rebuild, Where? or how? I do not know...but i do have some advantages as I own my home and at the same time I am not as young as some people may be looking for...personally I feel as though I would live forever...but these things are all subjective to how we look at ourselves and also it seems as what we my have inherited from our parents as well.
We will talk again,