My dearest, the sun silently sets on the horizon. There's no more light to see but I still search out following my heart crumbling in my hand like dust. I search and search and search. Hopefully you can see one day how loyal I have been for you. Preserving myself for you...waiting for you...growing more and more weary everyday... But never once giving up on you... never once letting you down... I hope you can see one day the fiery inspiration I hold for you finding new words everyday explaining how much I love and care about you.
I study your face always wondering what you’re thinking hoping that we want the same thing. I frighten myself sometimes with oblivious thoughts that we won't live happily ever after and it’s scary because I dream about us being happily married someday soon. My thoughts evade my dreams and I don't even know what to think anymore. I have cried myself to sleep the past five nights. I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like a lost cause and I hope for the best but prepare for the worst. Even saints aren't invincible. So, I wait for myself to break down I know it sounds stupid but I have the worst feeling that I will. I still and always will feel the same about you.