I am so numb i dont know what to think anymore. I know my heart hurts very bad, but that is my problem. I told you many many times that I would never leave you, and as of this time, I still have not left you. You are very deep in my heart. It pains me to know that you did not believe me when I told you that over and over. Now I know you did not believe me. Now you doubt me and even say I have a wife and you miss her husband. That hurts me more than what happened to me.
Yes, I will tell you exactly what happened to me. While you are thoinking so badly of me.
I was going home one night driving my car, when a drunk driver hit me in the front. My car was completely destroyed. When I woke up in the hospital several days later, I found out that I had cuts all over me and that my back was broken. I also lost most of my teeth. now I am missing most of them. My cell phone was lost and my personal papers and many other things. It was 1 week my daughter did not know what happened to me. I have had several operations in my back. I am getting better slowly, but have to learn to walk again. I have pain, but they say it will get better. The next step is to see what to do about my teeth. I dont have the pretty smile now that i used to have. Maybe one day it will be back. I had to wait till I could write a little so I could sign a paper so my daughter could go to the phone company and get my records and get another phone and my service restored. It is the same number, but just a different phone.
I am now at home, but a traveling nurse comes and helps me to walk. My daughter also helps me when she is here, but she has to be at home also. I understand she has her own life.
I could have written to you 1 week ago, but I have not because I am very hurt to know that you have no trust or faith in me. That breaks my heart and my sprit. I thought I had you, but I was very wrong.
I assure you, there will not be another. I will open my heart to no one again. With time, my body will get better, maybe I will have new teeth, But my heart will be closed, keeping only the memory and thoughts of you there.
I hope that you and daughter are fine, all of your doubting friends also. I hope your father to is fine along with your farm and house.
My life has forever changed. My only question is, Why was I left here to suffer. My whole life, this is what I end up with.
Im sorry Mod, you have no faith in me.