My heart is torn I make you a horrible evil. I know, I can not reproach you do, you are a wonderful woman. I also can not forget you, and I will never forget you. You have nothing to reproach you. I'm the bad !! not you . I know you learn French and that's great !! you exercise and you managed to lose much weight, you are now slim 51 kilos. I know I've done much harm !!! I suffer all the time from what I did. I need to be alone, I do too much. You deserve a good man !!!! I am not well.