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I dont want to be with anyone but you silly. You just need to let me in more. You keep me at such a distance that I cant look after you. I wanted more than anything to be able to look after you when you were sick. Its a bit hard though when you have to rush home everynight and Im not allowed to come to your house and you dont want to come here anymore!! You used to come here all the time. what has changed?
I thought that after you spoke to your gf about everything that we would become closer with each other and you would want to spend more time with me. But it has been the opposite. The only time i see you now is when i walk you throught the mrt. You dont talk to me or even look at me. I dont even see your smile anymore.
It feels to me that you dont want to be in a relationship with me. I try to be close to you and give you affection but i never get any back. I need to know you want to be with me. I know you work hard and need your rest time and have other friends to see but it seems that when your not with me you dont even think about me. A few sms messages would have shown that you were thinking of me but that is not something that you feel is not important.
When i hear you talk about coming to England it really makes me smile inside and im so happy that you say you would like to do it. You said about meeting with your mum more because she wants to talk to me and get to know me better. I think that is a great idea but you have not asked me to meet her anymore.
I seem to spend more time talking to praew and seeing holly in the evenings because they talk to me. I would do anything to spend time with you doing anything, seeing a movie having dinner or just sitting in the park. I have just grown tired of asking you and being rejected all the time. When you walk in and see me in the morning you dont even look at me and smile and all i want to do is give you a big hug.
I need to know that you are as much into this relationship as me. Which means you doing some things for me to show that you care and am happy with me. The smallest things have the biggest impact. I do love you and want this to work more than anything but I have been hiding behind a barrier recently because i dont want to get hurt. I need to see you putting as much effort in as me.
I would do anything fo you and do anything to see you happy again. I dont like seeing your sad face all the time. I want to be able to hold your hand, hug and kiss you because for me that shows more than any words can do that you care and want to be with that person.
Please tell me how to make you happy x0x0x0x0x0