You couldn't really objectively speaking look around and say "Well you've made a success of your life." I was 28, I was living on benefit, I was living on about seventy pounds a week, I had no work... And to suddenly be in a position where actually I couldn't support myself because obviously anyone who's tried to get state childcare will know that you'll be very lucky to get the kind of childcare that means you can work even part-time. So it's all a real shock to the system.