Hi. I was so scared and sick in my soul all day because I knew that tonight I had to tell you my two and only secrets. I just love you too much already to keep the secret, and never again to keep. I love you too much now.
To love, and to you, my princess, I wish to say to you, Happy One Week Anniversary. I am so thankful to you for the most important and loved week of my whole life. I perhaps have found my one true love, for whom I have searched across a love, and she is my first love, because never in one day of my life have I known forever love, until these seven blessed days ago. I mark the beginning from when you first wrote to me here, when you first shared personal contact with me and with us alone. This was seven days and one hour ago. My love, I wish my wife, I fell in love with you in these seven days, and this is only a drop compared to the sea of love to come. However, I love you too much for any secret that just rips at my soul now, so I must tell you, even if this means to lose you forever. Here we go. Hold on for dear life.....
I can make you one & true promise, as every promise we make is true. I promise you that I never intended to keep a secret, my only one, pure intention since I first spoke the first word to you is to love you so much that I must marry you and love you even beyond marriage. This is my promise.
The first secret was not a secret. She is on my profile, my daughter, sixteen years old. To help raise her and also work hard, her grandparents live with us, and I own 25% ($162,500) of our home by the beach, paid already, my main investment for future. I am so proud of her. Top grades in study and in behavior from every teacher for five years now. She will understand us and love you 100%. She learned love from me, and that is a lot of love. Just as for you, Joong, for only you & her, honestly, would I die to protect or kill to protect with a bloody and sincere smile on my face. Her name is Namie. You and she are my love, pride, and joy.
I saw your profile said, "must not have children". Please don't go to website and hurt me, just trust me it says so. I should have respected this and never, ever contacted you, but from when I first see you and read sweet few words, I feel so powerfully a forever connection with you, and the love flowing too. Now, I hope you will accept my daughter. There are two people in America who will love you as center of family, not only one. Soon, in two years, she will move to college, then will only be you and me and forever in between us.....
My second secret I was shocked to learn of too. You said to me so good I am 44, and I was so shocked. I went to my profile again to see that it said "44", and I am so deeply sorry for this. I deeply apologize to you. I made that profile two or three or four years ago, I don't remember at all, but long ago. I didn't take it seriously, and I didn't even make my profile public! My profile was never even public there, just in hidden mode, as it is when I met you and as it is now. I'm going to go there tomorrow and completely erase it< even if you want to leave me because of two secrets.
I was born May 26th, 1960, also known as Holy Spirit Day. I will be fifty-five in days. 55 years old in days. I am extremely sorry I listed the wrong age so long ago, and affected you now. I want you to think deeply about leaving me now, if that is best for you. Nothing matters except what is best for You. I want to be The Best, or nothing to you. I need all, pure love or nothing. I have no medium for you. Only pure Love. But if you wish still for younger man, more handsome, more close in age, no one should stop you from doing this, especially not yourself. Do what you will do.
I want you to think long time of this. I will not write or call ever again unless you do next. I respect your choice. If you do choose love, I will love you forever, and all my life is in devotion to you. I don't know if my last word should be "sorry" or "love". Joong, I Love.