There is no successfulness happened without obstacles. Everything coming into life is a test of life. It's hard to avoid, you should not think that your life is so bad or the things you choose or do and what you be are worse. You must think that the worse is the big test to test and also determine your own destination, decision and exactly your future. Just change your mind, your mental health will be better and actually the things you do or plan to do are coming to your life. Keep going and smiling.