One week has passed since we started looking after Nanahoshi.
She would just stare blankly throughout the day.
However, it seems the worst period has already passed.
Her appetite is thin, but she's eating and if we press her she even goes into the bath.
She goes in without trying to drown herself.
However, maybe because her stretched tension was cut, but I can't feel the willpower she previously had.
It's a feeling like she would simply break when pushed.
She has no energy as well.
If I were to say it, it's the kind of mood of someone who was deceived by the yakuza and found themself the star of an adult video in no time at all.
I can't leave her alone.
I need to be cautious not to let her meet someone like Luke.
The only thing that I can feel from the current Nanahoshi is resignation.
That experiment failed, but it seems she was enduring it to that degree.
She seemed so self-confident, it might have been a firm theory.
I wonder if that failure had enough meaning in it for the past several years she spent to all be pointless.
I've never experienced a setback that big.
The closest thing I have is when my data from a net game I continued playing for several years to the point of being an invalid, was deleted.
The instant I got the Bad Login message and Account Suspension mail, my heart's pounding got intense, I spent almost a full day unable to think of anything.
After protesting to the administrations, crying out thoroughly, and finally crying myself to sleep.
After that, I couldn't motivate myself to do anything for a month.
That time, I swore to myself that I would never seriously play net games again.
Nanahoshi's case is different from a net game.
She has the objective of returning to the previous world.
If she had to give up on that, I'm sure she wouldn't be able to live.
Thinking that, I looked here and there for ways to help but...
She was just spending everyday blanking out.
I don't even know if she was able to hear my conversation.
Is what I was thinking though.
"I thought I had closed it all up..."
One day, she suddenly said that.
I didn't respond and just listened.
"Magic circles, if I were to put them into words of our previous world, they're something like circuit boards. By joining together a number of patterns of circuits you can create a single function. However, no matter what, that one point, the circuit wouldn't connect together. No matter how much I changed the wiring, a certain single point and another single point wouldn't connect. I tried forcefully connecting them together, but then some other place always has a malfunction remaining."
For the sake of connecting together a circuit that isn't connecting together, she enlarged something that would normally be half the size.
And then in order to fix a single distortion, she added another circuit.
In the end it was a magic circle with a malfunction remaining in a single part.
Even though it shouldn't seem hopeless at a glance.
Just a single part isn't connecting together.
"It goes against the laws of physics. In other words, it means I won't be able to return to my home."
It was a magic circle full of patchwork almost like paper mache.
I'm sure Nanahoshi put quite a bit of effort into it.
At a glance, if she were to put a bit more effort into it, you might think that the circuit that's not connecting, would connect.
However, I'm sure if you were to do that again, a different circuit would stop connecting.
"It's already impossible..."
Nanahoshi said it like that and fell prostrated on the bed.