It was supposed to be painful.
Everyone always told me, that it is.
That it should be.
You should cry, miss. Let your family and friends be close to you.
Maybe it's true.
This things can help you to reduce the pain.
But what, if it isn't that easy?
I want to cry, but I can't. There are no tears in my eyes.
I want miss, but I can't believe that it really happened. I don't want believe.
I want someone near to me, but I haven't friends, I haven't family.
I'm just a terrorist.
They all lied to me. It isn't painful.
Compared to this, pain is nothing.
It is destroying me from inside. Slowly killing every piece of my body, like a cancer.
I'm still wondering, why did you do this to me.
Why did you let them kill you.
We should meet just after this hopeless fight.
So why…?
I can't find any answer.
Your death is killing me.
I'm lost in the space of my own thoughts.
'Can anyone show me some safe way to go?'
My whisper is reflected from the cold, grey walls and returns back to my ears.
There's nobody here. Nobody, but me.
Cause you are dead, Danna. You left me alone.
You told me, that I'm special to you, that I'm… the embodiment of art.
In your mouth it sounded like ' I love you'.
I'm just want to hear your voice once again.
Are you still irritated because of the way I express my feelings?
Look, it will never be the same.
My art doesn't matter without your eternity.
Life is everything I have.
But this everything is nothing, and nothingness is abyss, where I am. Where I can cry through eyes of my dirty soul.
Cause my real eyes are too tired, too dry.
I can't exist without you. I'm your property, like one of your puppets. Only difference is… that I'm only a human.
Do you see, how it's silly?
I become a victim of my own feelings, of whole this cruel world, which I'm a part of.
And all because of you.
You wanted me to live. That's the only reason why i am not suicidal.
If I die, may I could be with you for all eternity. I could feel your scent, touch your soft hair, warm my cold fingers in your hands. Again so close to you.
Because to me nothing else matters.
It is stronger than me.
I love you so much, Danna.
Wait for me at the other side.