i'm the one who goes nuts for him
he half forcefully seduces me
even if i try to do something for him
he'd return to being the lead right away
anyway he prefers to "do it" rather then "to be done to"
moreover, it feels like he enjoys seeing my reactions rather then "waning to do it"
it's really vexing
somehow
i myself want to do it
so it's all right for him not to be so calm and composed right?
i hate it when he looks so calm and composed