The unbearable amount of pain and issues , i have to face it alone . Emotionally and physically . I am not a expresser in emotion neither am i a satan . I'am merely human . A human whom just desire a normal peaceful life . The one you trust the most and love the most , turns out to be someone who will set you up for things you didn't commit . i'am devasted in my point of life to be honest . Devasted to the extent that i do not know where to i continue on to move on to walk on to face my future .. I'am sorry to everyone that love and care for me and i am sincerely sorry to have made you all worried. Right now .. i am just like a soft case of shell that is easy to be penetrate and also empty on the inside. I miss the moment of having a peaceful life . Why do i have to face the entrapment of this world ? Why is it always me . Dear god , may your mercy be given . Hallow be your name . Praise you lord . If i have sins , may you show me forgiveness , if i have not , may i humble myself before you to guide me in my future. I'am still lost even after speaking out . Sigh.