Based on the video, the bf was always there for his gf. They attended a party and an event happened. He tried to talk and she left abruptly. The gf was hurt and she had an accident. He followed her and found her not breathing on the hospital's bed. She haunts him at night and he kept thinking why she left without listening to him. He can't go on living without her. He wants to follow the map that will lead to her. He misses her and loves her dearly. He wants to end his life so that he can be with her.