I admit that I don't dare to think. We have known only 2 months but we have never meet each other before. You told me you wanted to marry me, but you don't know how when. And there is no guarantee that you will marry me really, In addition to your words.
I can wait for you, will 2 years, 3 years or 5 years I can. But when reach that time, I would never be able to have children because I will be 37 years old. Children is what I have been waiting my whole life. And I'm willing to sacrifice if I wait for you but I don't know if you still want to marry me or not.
If you think back, You may understand me more.
If I say to you that I want to marry you but I don't know when. And we are so far apart, I can only tell you that I have to work and save money to marry you and you wait without any guarantee that I will marry you, really. You have just my words only.
Nowadays we have many factors around us that makes us a confusing, distraction, not sure about what we're doing. Like today, I miss you so much and I want to chat with you, I want to see your smile, I want to hear your laugh. I have never thought before that we will not understand each other again in today but we did. My heart growing it down immediately. Until I realized that I should not expect anything more than today. My future with you, I have just today. Because I don't know what will happen between us tomorrow. We may stop communicating to each other like we have ever did.