Thanks a lot! I am famous as a cool head and able to solve many problems both people relates and job related, which was why I grew up from an engineer to a director level within 10 yrs in this American company! I help consult many people for their personal problem for many cases! But when I got hit with my own personal issue, I just do not know where to go! Normally I will share talk some of my problems with father and relieve a lot but this rocky relationship with my wife , divorce issue, I do not share with my father and do not want them to feel bad, so, some how I am pressurized! I have to pretend to parents that I am having a happy family! Thanks so much for your advice, Ninja... In fact, there are so many other people who are facing much worse situation than me! I will put / push myself into a cheerful mood again! Thanks krub