I have to resort to email, and email is not enough. I am starting to get tired of relying on words. They are full of meaning, yes, but they lack sensation. Writing to her is not the same as seeing her face as the listens. Hearing back from her is not the same as hearing her voice. I have always been grateful for technology, but now it feels as if there's a little hitch of separation woven into any technological interaction. I want to be there, and this scares me. All of my usual disconnected comforts are being taken away, now that I see the greater comfort of presence.