Josh is actually doing very good and hasn't drank or taken any pills. I'm telling you the truth. He's starting to eat more because he got VERY skinny worrying about and missing you. He's trying to move on with his life as he knows that you have chosen the other guy as it seems to all of us. There's no way Josh can compete with someone that can give you so much more in life because Josh doesn't make much money now but he is trying to find a better paying job.
I truly hope that you are happy Mam as I still think you are a good person. Josh still compares other women with you but he is trying to move on and I know he wants to get serious now and be a good family man and start a family. I just wish he hadn't drank when he was with you because I think you would have made a good couple. I know he still loves you but is forcing himself to accept that you have moved on.
I think he was secretly trying to come back to you despite us telling him we would not even help him get to the airport. Wasn't because of you it was because we knew he hadn't been sober enough yet. He asked me, "dad, what if I just leave and show up at mam's door and get my own apartment and get another teaching job to show her that I am different?" I told him he wasn't ready and that we might never see him again alive. so he tried thinking of any way to bring you over here.
Josh isn't going to post on Facebook probably until he has something good to put on there Mam. I told him to stop posting pictures of you with him on there because it was only hurting him. It reminded him of what he wasn't going to have ever again. But he did it to himself and it doesn't mean that he can't start fresh again with someone. but like I said, he compares everyone he sees to you. Not telling you to make you feel good but telling you the truth as you asked. If you 2 can't forgive what you have both done, and he's done way more than you, than you should both look for someone else. Life is too short to waste time what happened in the past. Our little time on this earth should be spent making NEW memories with the one we love.
So I thank you for still caring and I hope both of you have a wonderful life. I truly do Mam!