May you find peace wherever you may be. Some people go through life without any kind of accomplishment, didn't go for what they want nor do what they love. You have done all of those. Even if it's for only 31 years, it was 31 years of doing what you love in the most original way possible. Even the way you decided to go, it was your will and you did what you wanted the way you wanted. Many people lived their lives being afraid, scared of rejection, scared of failures; that is not living. You have lived your life as full and as authentic as it could have been. I can say without any hesitation that u have lived more than most people in this world, that's what life is all about, to live! You have lived a full life my friend. Cheers to you my friend, we will meet again one day. Be safe on the other side and once again, I wish you find what you're looking for.