Hi Fhun,
According to your description, you have 2 hard weeks ahead of you. I wish you much success.
I think, our relation has to do nothing with lacking trust.
I trust you. You have given me no doubts.
Also, I would not like to be your teacher. You are an adult woman.
I wanted to give you a piece of experience of life of myself merely.
The problem in our relationship is that: we have different expectations or hopes.
With other words: You expect more things and other things than I can give.
I can offer merely friendship to you.
I believe in love on the Internet no longer.
But I have explained this already several times.
I wish you to go with open eyes by the world.
Maybe then you look at the people in your sphere also in a different light.
You could identify, whether God has a gift for you.
In any case, I wish you for the next time all the imaginable best. God bless you.
Take care