today I had to work sad things.
Perhaps I told you, that a friend and colleague of mine died. His funeral is next week on tuesday.
I have to organize the music. We will play with four music colleagues. I am so afraid of this, because
I am so sensitive and I fear that I can't play because of crying. This is one side of me.
On the other side I can stand very much. I can stand pain and I accept my fate.
But I loose tears very fast - also when I am touched with good things. I will try to avoid it, but may
be that you can see some tears, when I embrace you. Sorry.
I am seriously but also funny and naughty.
I am strong but also very weak and sensitive.