It's okay and it's understandable. Again, I think you need more time for yourself and not worry about getting into another relationship. the problem is, you may get into a relationship just to hide or push away the sadness you've felt. People that have recently been hurt do it a lot and they don't even know it. That's not a good reason to get into another relationship and it will never work.
What are your real feelings for me? Can I ask what you want?