needed to kill-off this crush somehow - to try and get to know this girl in order to lower her from Faultless Goddess, back down to a normal boring human being. But I was an insecure loser battling my own will. I started messaging her on Facebook. Trying to "friend" her on the internet. I gave her Christmas gifts. God, I hated myself, but I couldn't stop. So I told her about my feelings. Of why I was showering her in unreciprocated attention, with compliments, with gifts. I told her about my love for my family. How I could never do anything to hurt them. I begged her to understand and bear with me while I try to ride out the emotional storm.
Her response was to gut me. Mercilessly.