In 2013, things started to seem like they were going down hill for me.
I couldn't understand why I had become such a self-righteous and
arrogant person. I didn't know why my thoughts would always had me
doubt others and even myself a lot of the times. I would have deceitful
thoughts towards myself, drawing up situations and how I would get
myself out of them and by solving threating circumstances. Of course
these situations would never arise and it had become something very
tiresome. These thoughts continually frustrated and tormented me, as I
wasn't able to change my way of thinking, I began to seek for a solution. I started doing yoga and meditation. I would read on self-spiritual
development and starred to think about sin. All of these methods were
only temporary fixes. After yoga or meditation, my thoughts were the
same as the once were. There was no way around it, no escape route in
sire.
At a time in my life where I felt most successful, I also felt most
empty. I had everything anyone could ever ask for, a good job, money, a
nice place