Try to understand..1..I am not a wealthy man..I was prepared to give up everything in england,my home..my car..my dog..my friends..and come to thailand where no one speaks much english.and i speak no thai..be very lonely for me,but i was was happy to leave everything here for my love for you..but i can be sure it will,and i have no way back..then what do i do..im a old man .cant risk being alone there..can come back to england has home will be gone..I am having problems with pension people about getting them to release my money now..so maybe better you say i have died to your friends .I close face-book.so no-one in thailand will know i am alive..