Well the things that are hard for me right now and making me sad are things I can't find a way to make it easier and they are things I have to do. It's just everything is forced on me at the same time... I don't know how to handle it all.... I wish I just had a better grip on my life but I just feel behind... Like I am never going to get ahead of things. 1 positive thing and then 3 negative things... Always losing