Yes u may look like a bad guy, but u're not. Everyone who has lived with u knows that and I know that too. Why don't u see your own value? People are different, everyone makes mistakes. Don't listen to the doctor okay? Cambodian doctors are not professional, u gotta believe in urself that u can grow old, just like other ordinary people. Please don't give up on yourself, it's all about being happy. Could u please tell me why did the doctor say that? Wat's happening to u?