for half an hour i kept throwing out buckets of water. it was slow, hard work, but having a purpose and a goal lifted my spirits. but all too soon i was out of breath and energy. i was back to worrying, imagining horrible endings. i needed something to keep me alert. i started testing my knowledge. i named lighthouses, then the planets. once i'd finished them, i stated on each each planet's moons. through it all,i kept saying,"i must not fall asleep.