Dear Net
hope you had good sleep
when you get free time read this
today i want you to know that how much importance of you is their in my life.
you always ask me you don't go to meet friends
to whom i used to talk before
when i became paraplegic patient. after that incident happened i go in depression
life became hell parents became enemy. they thought i am useless now and i am burden on them. no one was there to support me i became very alone. people started talking bad at back. no treatment no medicine parents said they can't afford my treatment. but during my operation my mother do all the expenses. i respect her for that. i was three months in hospital. first month mother visit every day but after that she stopped visiting only my friends visits sometime. in hospital that time i was not able to move also because iron rod was insert to support my back bone. during visiting hours i see other patient there family members come to see them bring food fruits juice but no one came from my family. except my parents all other family members stay very far so they come to visit once in a month. i lay on bed seeing at the door expecting someone of my family member but days passed no one came. the hospital provides foot so there was no eating problem. then the time came to get discharge from the hospital. i phone to my mother but she said don't come at home. i said okay then i call my friend and ask him to bring this car. he came in the morning and i went to native place. that time my father supported me and allow me to stay in native place. there was one girl who is my friend she said don't worry i will take care of everything. then she use to come in the afternoon cook food stay with me and early morning she goes to her house and come back in afternoon. she helped me alot. i thank to her. 1 month gone my money was about to finished. i talked with my father and told him that is this the way you do with your children. if you cannot support your children why you gave birth. i think my father that time felt guilty. he said to me return back home. i went back home. native place was 390 km away. i reached at early morning. my mother open the door i saw her face she was little happy because she saw i was walking with the help of walker. all things went nice for some days. she started my treatment also. but treatment stopped after sometime because doctor told its not working you should have start treatment as soon as the operation is done now it is too late. hearing those words from the doctor i got shocked. and said to god why you saved me you should have kill me. please don't do like this to me but god not listen. then slowly slowly all family members started ignoring me. if i ask food they just give the answer wait you will not die if you don't eat. so i stopped asking them for thing. whatever i get i use to take. then some friends advice me to open facebook account and connect with friends for timepass.
i open facebook account and use to chat with friends old school friends. then slowly slowly i came out of depression and thought something to do for earning. so i started doing real estates business means selling property and get commission i tried lot but sitting at home and arranging meeting of people didn't work. business failed but got experience and made new contacts. then started another work of getting civil contract and giving to the companies that also didn't work but made good people contacts. then like this 2-3 more business i tried all failed but got very good experience and good contacts with people. then i started doing share market i was not knowing anything about that but i study everything from internet and get knowledge. that time i use to study whole night and work full day i was only sleeping 4-5 hours a day. when i started doing share market i stopped chating on facebook from than my facebook chat is on offline mode till now you can see my chat is always on offline mode. in share market i lost all my money and then stopped it. i made a decision that i will not invest in share market till i have plenty of money. days went i just thin now what to do? how to earn? no support from anybody. then suddenly one day my mother said we have to do renovation of the house and they started searching contractor for work. all contractor were very expensive so i said my mother i will do it you give the money as your budget my mother said ok because of my contacts i find a contractor who was my friends brother. he said he will do it. then i design the house. each and everything of the house was of my choice. work get going for 2 months and finally the house was ready. the house was looking so beautiful that people admire my work my mother saw the house and she was very happy with the work done. important thing is that i have done the work in half of their budget. all the worker said you should do this business your design and thinking is very good. you please come to this business. so i decided to do this business. after the house work completed after 4 days i got an argument with my sister's boyfriend he started giving me bad words in front of everyone. i asked my mother to tell him to keep quit but instead of tell him my mother also started yelling me you are useless you are burden on house. i started crying in front of everybody but no one saw my tears they keep on yelling. it was very embarrassment for me that a 31 year boy crying in front of everybody. i asked my mother am i a burden for you she said yes you are useless we don't want you. i said okay. i got up took a bag pack 3 t shirts and 3 pants call my friend. she came and try to make everyone claim but i said her if you cannot help i will call anybody else. she said no she will help. then i went to her home. she stay alone with her sister. then whole night i cry. next morning i decided to go some orphan home. i phone some orphan home but they said it is not free you have to pay for stay. that time i was thinking again to do suicide.
just sitting down watch in the sky asking god for help crying and crying.
after 3 day i became claim and think that my mother said i am useless now i will show them that i am not useless. some energy came in me and i decided to fight.
i arrange money and founs a room on rent. buy laptop. my friend gave me some household thing and shifted in my rent room. Internet connection was not their i phone to internet office to put the connection they came after 2 days and i got the connection. i first open facebook page and saw a friend request name net terchapa i ignore it because i don't know who was it. then i started finding some work which can be done from home. i got one typing job i work on that after 1 week of hard work the company not gave the money they cheat me. i made myself strong and let it go. then i decided to concentrate on house design work. then i open facebook one day and made decision to accept every friend request so that new people will meet and it is good for business. then i accepted all the friend request on face book. i saw net terchapa request again i accept the request and message her hi how do you do? the next morning reply came hi i am fine. from than we started talking. i like the way you started talking as a friendly i forgot all my sorrow all sadness gone talking with you. it was like i came in different world. you keep on asking me question i keep on answering it. you send me your photos i started thinking more about you. you sing a song and send me i became so happy that some one is still there for caring me. i still remember your three words
you got me
okay
you are not alone
these words change my entire life. you gave me your time talk with me. i became so happy. you go to job do house work helping in shop and than also give time to me.
sometimes you became very tired but you never forget to talk with me.
you send me some beautiful songs i hear the everyday.
you send me your photos i became very happy.
seeing your photos feel me like you are with me near me i am not alone
i start my day seeing you and end my day seeing you
i think god send you for me
due to language problem we don't understand half of the talk but still we talk
but you understand me very well i noticed you sometime
baby you are the key of my happiness
you brought smile on my face
given me strength to fight
i beg you
you never live me. never make me alone.
it is okay when you are busy with some work
but never forget someone is really missing you
words are less to express my feeling
you are my life
my heart is already with you please take care of it
hope you will read this and understand this
with love
Ninad.