Hi,
Very sorry to hear about that bomb in Bangkok. All those people getting killed and injured. That is very very sad and I wish there was not such evil in the world.
I cared for you very much. If you do not believe that I ever did I cannot change what you think. I know in my heart that I truly did so I have nothing to feel bad about. If I was a liar and had no feelings for you why would I be so upset about what has happened to us. I could have cared less if that was the case. If I was not serious about you would I spend hours on my days off printing our conversations in my office? If I was not serious about you would i spend so much time communicating with immigration consultants and doing lots of online research to find out how we can be together? If I was not serious about you would I spend hours every night chatting with you for months? If I was not serious about you would the fist thing I did at the concert hall would be to stand in line for 45 minutes to make sure i got you a t shirt because I was worried they would sell out of them and I wanted you to have one so badly?
I did believe that you cared about me. But you have to understand what i started to think. We told each other that we are boyfriend/girlfriend and we talked constantly about maybe holding hands. Then, out of nowhere you came out and said because we are not boyfriend/girlfriend we cannot hold hands on the trip. You think about what you have said here and how you are expecting me to react to what you have said?? I know you tried to explain yourself, but it does not have to be so complicated an answer.
Bottom line:
1). We can hold hands on trip , I call you my girlfriend you call me your tee rak
2). Now, we are no longer girlfriend and tee rak so we cannot hold hands???????
What in the hell now was I supposed to think??????. I will tell you. After that I felt that you have no feelings for me or do not think you can develop those kinds of feelings for me . You have to understand tha...