Speaking haltingly, as tears continued falling from her reddened eyes, Watcharin Nuansai says it would have been better had she died with her husband and young son and not survived alone.
Ms Watcharin, 34, is the mother of two-year-old toddler Jakarin "Title" Hiangma who was killed along with five other people after four militants sprayed bullets into a grocery shop in Pattani on Wednesday night.
Her husband Saman Hiangma, 38, was among the five adults slain in the shooting.
The couple owned the grocery shop in tambon Rusamelae, in Muang district. They had run it for six years.
Ms Watcharin escaped from the bullets because she went into the house to take a bath.