Another night
Another night spent, not in her own bed but in Ji-yeon’s.
Another night she was sure to be filled with discomfort. Four days have passed and somehow...somehow the pendulum of problems had dipped more towards her end while it lifted on Ji-yeon's. She was the one these days that had trouble sleeping and though the cause was obvious, it was mainly due to her own actions.
No one had forced her to keep coming over to Ji-yeon's room after that first night. She had absolutely no obligation whatever to comforting the other girl. They were all supposed to be suffering in their own ways and where the others were concerned, it clearly showed. No one had mentioned the current events as part of a conversation and they all seemed to have put a lid on it when in the presence of the other. A-reum was sure though that if she had gone to any of the others’ rooms, she would have found them dealing with the problem they faced in each and every one's own way.
Just like Ji-yeon was drowning out her sorrows in silent, okay not so silent, nightly cries.
A-reum just hoped that none resorted to severe ways of dealing with the stress.
Getting back to her problems, sure she was also hit with the radiation that came with the nuclear war between KKS and the fans. She was part of T-ara and to the fans T-ara was one as far as they were concerned. No, that wasn't completely right. Some members had been chosen out as the primary targets and Ji-yeon herself was at the top of that most-wanted list. This might have been the reason why she had chosen to come over to her instead of the others. Now though she knows that it was much more than that.
This comes back to the latest sleep problems she's been having.
Sure The first night Ji-yeon's strange actions had kept her up quite a ways into the late night but these actions did not quite go so far as to warranty such levels of sleep deprivation. In fact the night before Ji-yeon actually behaved herself and only cuddled with A-reum and nothing more. Okay, so cuddling was a light take on the way her Unnie threaded her limbs around A-reum so tightly and expertly that she would have made pythons and Anacondas jealous but still...
The problem there was not the lack of air but actually the fact that A-reum did nothing to get comfortable. Another problem is the fact that despite Ji-yeon having not shed any more tears after the second night, A-reum kept coming back to her room the nights that followed. Deepening the problem is the fact that even though no one forced her to come back still, she felt very nervous now whenever she was in this room - Ji-yeon's room. Even now when she was all alone in the room because Ji-yeon had excused herself to the lady's room, her heart wasted energy in the way it was furious pumping blood through her.
No longer was it the outside troubles their company faced, nor was it about Ji-yeon's nightly habits, though now almost done with thank God. Her feelings towards her partner and now roommate as of recent were the real problem.
Things actually only became clear to her earlier today after she and the others minus Ji-yeon, had come back from camping trip in the woods to find an unexpected visitor keeping Ji-yeon, who was supposed to be alone, company.
It was the last and youngest member of T-ara - Dani.
A-reum scoffed.
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Flashback
The morning had started out pleasantly, as A-reum had come to consider it due to Ji-yeon's consistent decision to sit right next to her during breakfast. They were so close that had they been any closer, Ji-yeon would practically be sitting on A-reum's lap. They were connected at both the shoulders and hips and when Ji-yeon's muscles moved at all, A-reum would clearly feel it. That's not all she was feeling either. The heat emitting from Ji-yeon's skin, no thanks to that really thin night-gown, was not making things any easier.
This closeness had resumed after their first night sleeping together. And did that come out the wrong way or what?! A-reum was not the only one surprised by the sudden closeness. Ji-yeon was a touchy person to begin with but even so, she was rarely seen in contact with A-reum. In fact it was a bit attention grabbing the way those two did not seem to connect. So when one morning Ji-yeon ups and gets all close and personal with A-reum, you best believe there were eyes burning holes in her from all sides.
A-reum was surprised by the fact that Ji-yeon chose to sit close to her. They had never sat close together before as the other girls usually sat close to Hyo-min, So-yeon or Bo-ram whenever they were in private mode. It wouldn’t have been that much of a big deal but the way Ji-yeon scooted the already close chair even closer, so much so in fact that A-reum could feel Ji-yeon’s muscles under her nighties even through her own clothes. She nearly spit the coffee she was drinking at the contact but was forced to hold it in when the other girl turned to her and gave her a very blinding smile.
“Hey”
“H-Hi”
Here was the thing – Ji-yeon was actually a very shy person. If there was one true example that represented the saying ‘Do Not judge a book By Its Cover’, A-reum could think of nothing/no one better than Ji-yeon. With shame A-reum remembered that she too had done just that at their first meeting. She had judged Ji-yeon on appearances alone but really, who could blame her? The girl gave off a look of pure bitch status as if it was perfected like an art. If a person made this judgement of her and never got to talk to Ji-yeon, that image would most definitely stick so A-reum considered her-self very lucky she got to know the real Ji-yeon. As hard as it might be to believe, that was just how Ji-yeon carried herself everywhere. Be it family, friends, co-workers or strangers, she was always like that. It was natural.
It wasn’t until one started talking to Ji-yeon that they would have their wires getting crossed because as soon as Ji-yeon lets out the first word, everything you know or thought you knew about Park Ji-yeon changes right at that moment.
It might have been just herself though.
A-reum might have been affected differently from how others would have been.
You know, because of her feeling towards…arg
Anyway, if that was the case, then she was very glad for the way it turned out because now, as she sat next to this…this girl who meant…What exactly did Ji-yeon mean to her now anyway? She did not know and she did not care. At the very least not right at that moment.
As mentioned before, She and Ji-yeon had never been that close, but really, A-reum wasn’t that close to anyone yet being as she just joined T-ara and though she felt somewhat un-belonging, like she was some friend playing the third wheel to their friends who are a couple, she was getting close to the other members but Ji-yeon. Hwa-young, lovely Hwa-young, was one who made the extra effort to make A-reum as comfortable as she possibly could by doing little things that though may have seemed little to others, these little thing meant a lot to A-reum that they were not so little to her.
Hwa-young would make sure to include A-reum into their conversations by asking her opinion on things or if anything of the sort had ever happened to her and things like that. When they went out Hwa-young would walk close to her, sometimes hold her hand and pull her so she could walk closer to the other girls and through these fuels for confidence, A-reum finally got closer to the members but not all.
Ji-yeon was a hard one.
Though she thought it silly now that she looks back on it, A-reum was actually thinking that Ji-yeon was avoiding her back then. Well, she calls it back then but it hasn’t been that long ago really – not even half a year has passed. Ji-yeon usually kept to herself and rarely talked even when the other girls were engaged in a heated conversation. She was an odd one like that. But though she did not talk, the other members did not seem to mind her and though her contribution was closer to zero, the fact that she would be sitting closer to a member (usually Hyo-min – yes, she counted!) and sometimes holding hands with others (strangely more with Bo-ram – what? She was curious!) it was as if that was enough for the other members.
Being the new addition and somewhat shy too, or maybe she was just simply intimidated by the quiet Ji-yeon, A-reum could not bring out the courage to up and talk to Ji-yeon out of the blue. What a way to waste dearest Hwa-young’s efforts, right? Actually now that she thought of it, A-reum remembers that she stared quite a lot at Ji-yeon. Being that she too was not a great participant in the usual conversations, left her getting lost and thus off of the conversations topic and more onto other things.
And what other things were more interesting than the quiet Ji-yeon, sitting there on, usually someone’s lap, and playing some game on her phone with one hand while the other held someone else’s hand?
Nothing
“Are you okay…?”
A-reum blinked to clear her suddenly incomprehensible vision. Where was she again?
“Huh…?”
She asked nobody in particular. She did not even know who had spoken or to whom but her conscious told her it was she that was being talked to so she obeyed.
“I asked if you are okay. You zoned out a little there…”
How could she not have recognised that voice? That voice that made her ears seem linear the way her words got in through the left ear, dissolved into the brain then evaporated out the right!
She turned around so fast to regard Ji-yeon that she heard her neck muscles cry out in protests, which followed up with some pain but she ignored it.
“Oh, sorry I was just…”
Then it was a whole other different muscle that complained when her breathe caught at the blinding smile she was faced with when she turned to Ji-yeon.
She stared.
She noticed she was staring. Her cheeks went hot with embarrassment from her noticing.
Another night
Another night spent, not in her own bed but in Ji-yeon’s.
Another night she was sure to be filled with discomfort. Four days have passed and somehow...somehow the pendulum of problems had dipped more towards her end while it lifted on Ji-yeon's. She was the one these days that had trouble sleeping and though the cause was obvious, it was mainly due to her own actions.
No one had forced her to keep coming over to Ji-yeon's room after that first night. She had absolutely no obligation whatever to comforting the other girl. They were all supposed to be suffering in their own ways and where the others were concerned, it clearly showed. No one had mentioned the current events as part of a conversation and they all seemed to have put a lid on it when in the presence of the other. A-reum was sure though that if she had gone to any of the others’ rooms, she would have found them dealing with the problem they faced in each and every one's own way.
Just like Ji-yeon was drowning out her sorrows in silent, okay not so silent, nightly cries.
A-reum just hoped that none resorted to severe ways of dealing with the stress.
Getting back to her problems, sure she was also hit with the radiation that came with the nuclear war between KKS and the fans. She was part of T-ara and to the fans T-ara was one as far as they were concerned. No, that wasn't completely right. Some members had been chosen out as the primary targets and Ji-yeon herself was at the top of that most-wanted list. This might have been the reason why she had chosen to come over to her instead of the others. Now though she knows that it was much more than that.
This comes back to the latest sleep problems she's been having.
Sure The first night Ji-yeon's strange actions had kept her up quite a ways into the late night but these actions did not quite go so far as to warranty such levels of sleep deprivation. In fact the night before Ji-yeon actually behaved herself and only cuddled with A-reum and nothing more. Okay, so cuddling was a light take on the way her Unnie threaded her limbs around A-reum so tightly and expertly that she would have made pythons and Anacondas jealous but still...
The problem there was not the lack of air but actually the fact that A-reum did nothing to get comfortable. Another problem is the fact that despite Ji-yeon having not shed any more tears after the second night, A-reum kept coming back to her room the nights that followed. Deepening the problem is the fact that even though no one forced her to come back still, she felt very nervous now whenever she was in this room - Ji-yeon's room. Even now when she was all alone in the room because Ji-yeon had excused herself to the lady's room, her heart wasted energy in the way it was furious pumping blood through her.
No longer was it the outside troubles their company faced, nor was it about Ji-yeon's nightly habits, though now almost done with thank God. Her feelings towards her partner and now roommate as of recent were the real problem.
Things actually only became clear to her earlier today after she and the others minus Ji-yeon, had come back from camping trip in the woods to find an unexpected visitor keeping Ji-yeon, who was supposed to be alone, company.
It was the last and youngest member of T-ara - Dani.
A-reum scoffed.
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Flashback
The morning had started out pleasantly, as A-reum had come to consider it due to Ji-yeon's consistent decision to sit right next to her during breakfast. They were so close that had they been any closer, Ji-yeon would practically be sitting on A-reum's lap. They were connected at both the shoulders and hips and when Ji-yeon's muscles moved at all, A-reum would clearly feel it. That's not all she was feeling either. The heat emitting from Ji-yeon's skin, no thanks to that really thin night-gown, was not making things any easier.
This closeness had resumed after their first night sleeping together. And did that come out the wrong way or what?! A-reum was not the only one surprised by the sudden closeness. Ji-yeon was a touchy person to begin with but even so, she was rarely seen in contact with A-reum. In fact it was a bit attention grabbing the way those two did not seem to connect. So when one morning Ji-yeon ups and gets all close and personal with A-reum, you best believe there were eyes burning holes in her from all sides.
A-reum was surprised by the fact that Ji-yeon chose to sit close to her. They had never sat close together before as the other girls usually sat close to Hyo-min, So-yeon or Bo-ram whenever they were in private mode. It wouldn’t have been that much of a big deal but the way Ji-yeon scooted the already close chair even closer, so much so in fact that A-reum could feel Ji-yeon’s muscles under her nighties even through her own clothes. She nearly spit the coffee she was drinking at the contact but was forced to hold it in when the other girl turned to her and gave her a very blinding smile.
“Hey”
“H-Hi”
Here was the thing – Ji-yeon was actually a very shy person. If there was one true example that represented the saying ‘Do Not judge a book By Its Cover’, A-reum could think of nothing/no one better than Ji-yeon. With shame A-reum remembered that she too had done just that at their first meeting. She had judged Ji-yeon on appearances alone but really, who could blame her? The girl gave off a look of pure bitch status as if it was perfected like an art. If a person made this judgement of her and never got to talk to Ji-yeon, that image would most definitely stick so A-reum considered her-self very lucky she got to know the real Ji-yeon. As hard as it might be to believe, that was just how Ji-yeon carried herself everywhere. Be it family, friends, co-workers or strangers, she was always like that. It was natural.
It wasn’t until one started talking to Ji-yeon that they would have their wires getting crossed because as soon as Ji-yeon lets out the first word, everything you know or thought you knew about Park Ji-yeon changes right at that moment.
It might have been just herself though.
A-reum might have been affected differently from how others would have been.
You know, because of her feeling towards…arg
Anyway, if that was the case, then she was very glad for the way it turned out because now, as she sat next to this…this girl who meant…What exactly did Ji-yeon mean to her now anyway? She did not know and she did not care. At the very least not right at that moment.
As mentioned before, She and Ji-yeon had never been that close, but really, A-reum wasn’t that close to anyone yet being as she just joined T-ara and though she felt somewhat un-belonging, like she was some friend playing the third wheel to their friends who are a couple, she was getting close to the other members but Ji-yeon. Hwa-young, lovely Hwa-young, was one who made the extra effort to make A-reum as comfortable as she possibly could by doing little things that though may have seemed little to others, these little thing meant a lot to A-reum that they were not so little to her.
Hwa-young would make sure to include A-reum into their conversations by asking her opinion on things or if anything of the sort had ever happened to her and things like that. When they went out Hwa-young would walk close to her, sometimes hold her hand and pull her so she could walk closer to the other girls and through these fuels for confidence, A-reum finally got closer to the members but not all.
Ji-yeon was a hard one.
Though she thought it silly now that she looks back on it, A-reum was actually thinking that Ji-yeon was avoiding her back then. Well, she calls it back then but it hasn’t been that long ago really – not even half a year has passed. Ji-yeon usually kept to herself and rarely talked even when the other girls were engaged in a heated conversation. She was an odd one like that. But though she did not talk, the other members did not seem to mind her and though her contribution was closer to zero, the fact that she would be sitting closer to a member (usually Hyo-min – yes, she counted!) and sometimes holding hands with others (strangely more with Bo-ram – what? She was curious!) it was as if that was enough for the other members.
Being the new addition and somewhat shy too, or maybe she was just simply intimidated by the quiet Ji-yeon, A-reum could not bring out the courage to up and talk to Ji-yeon out of the blue. What a way to waste dearest Hwa-young’s efforts, right? Actually now that she thought of it, A-reum remembers that she stared quite a lot at Ji-yeon. Being that she too was not a great participant in the usual conversations, left her getting lost and thus off of the conversations topic and more onto other things.
And what other things were more interesting than the quiet Ji-yeon, sitting there on, usually someone’s lap, and playing some game on her phone with one hand while the other held someone else’s hand?
Nothing
“Are you okay…?”
A-reum blinked to clear her suddenly incomprehensible vision. Where was she again?
“Huh…?”
She asked nobody in particular. She did not even know who had spoken or to whom but her conscious told her it was she that was being talked to so she obeyed.
“I asked if you are okay. You zoned out a little there…”
How could she not have recognised that voice? That voice that made her ears seem linear the way her words got in through the left ear, dissolved into the brain then evaporated out the right!
She turned around so fast to regard Ji-yeon that she heard her neck muscles cry out in protests, which followed up with some pain but she ignored it.
“Oh, sorry I was just…”
Then it was a whole other different muscle that complained when her breathe caught at the blinding smile she was faced with when she turned to Ji-yeon.
She stared.
She noticed she was staring. Her cheeks went hot with embarrassment from her noticing.
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