I don't want to disappear from your life. I'm just tired and downhearted that i text you first all the time. In spite of my English speaking skill are no good because I want to talk to you and I have had a secret crush on you for the longest time I know you think I'm just a friend, but I'm not. I don't have the guts to tell you, then fear to lose you go. That's all I have to say.