It's been for almost three months since I am with Blue. I feel like I am changing. I am changing to me more gentle, kind and loving. It must be her that brought up this side of me. I knew I was not like this, not ever. But I think I like this version of me. Everybody need somes sweetness to power thier life, right? for sure, relationship is going to be mess. There will be up. There will be downs. But I will live this moment. I will internally consume it. Turns it into positive energy, happiness. I will use it to push me further. I think I am in love. I am in love with Blue, the girl I never looked for. You melted my heart, completely. You malted me, forging me into a better man. I may not remember most of the things that passthrough my life. But for what it's wort,. I do. I do remember my felling when we first meet. I remembered my feeling when we first holing hand. I remembered my feeling when I missed you. I am thankful for your love.