Leeteuk moved and wouldn't let her have it. She thought she sorted through everything that night, but that wasn't the case. Tonight there was one left behind of evidence. There was nothing she could explain. She had spent her entire life in the California mourning over her mistake and bury it behind. A secret she'll forever stay with her and even her daughter will never know. No matter how she tried to tell herself it wasn't her fault, she couldn't come to that point of that life. He watch her in deep thought. Leeteuk squeezed her hand in an almost painful grip. The pain brought her back to the present. She pulled her hand out of his grip and moved to sit on the bed. Her arms wrap around her own waist and she rocked herself forward and back. Leeteuk looked empathetic, as if he understood everything. But of course he couldn't understand what it had been for her. She hadn't been much of a girlfriend to him. She wasn't sure if she had been fare to Ashitsoo. She hadn't been much of anything. Sora felt more embarrassed about alot of self made decision she did. Some seemed right and some wrong. "Everytime I think I'm making the right decision but I feel like I'm doing something else wrong." She said in a low voice. "I've always spent my days coming up with reasons why I couldn't leave my home in California behind. But at the end I came back here. It got worse." She looked up at Leeteuk. He looked to the paper and back to Sora. "I don't want you to hate me more then you had already years ago. I promise myself things will get better again when Ashitsoo and I get back to the US." She said. "And hide in fear and run from the truth. You make yourself look more guilty than innocent. You need to stop." He said. "Stop what?" She asked. "Stop blaming yourself." He said. "This," she pointed to the paper, "is guilt. Don't you understand... I've, I've lost my other daughter. It was my fault she is dead." Sora blurted and tears started to spill out. "Ashitsoo's other twin? How is it that my resources didn't get this?" He said with the surprise discovery. Sora ducked her head low to keep from having him see her cry. She knew he hated the site of tears. Leeteuk swallowed hard and ran his hands over his face to his hair. "What happen in LA?" He manage to ask. She sniffled and took a deep breath, she wiped her tears and peeked over to him. He hadn't moved an inch from where he stood. "She was already dead inside my stomach while I was in labor. Believe me I didn't want this." She said. "But why would you want to hide this from me." He asked and held in his fears as he looked to the certicate. "I... I can't come to tell you." Sora's voice cracked. "Leeteuk moved and grabbed Sora shoulders. Forcing her to stand he searched for her eyes. "You shouldn't hide these fears and pain alone, Sora. Tell me." He said. Sora shook her head and started to cry again. "I don't want you to stop loving me because of this. But if this will make you feel better I will tell you." She said. "He stayed silent. She took a deep breath and caressed his cheeks. "There is a risk of me dying if I conceive another child..." Sora spoke in a mere whisper. "What?" Leeteuk mutter. "I'm afraid of disappointing you. And-" She said and stop as his hold lossen on her. Sora watch as him make space between them. She could feel that old wound open up again.