.I don't feel anything, just nothingness, and the only way for me to feel something is to self harm, and you try to wait the feeling out but it seems endless. "I don't know where to go": I feel trapped. Like sometimes I'm in a black room like that, and it's just dark and sad, and the white is "calm", but I don't feel anything. "I don't know what to feel": I feel nothing. "I don't know how to cry": like, sometimes for me I can't