Benni, first I consider you as very important. You have a place in my heart as a close friend and more... I want u to talk about your problem to me, I can help you to find a solution. Don t imagine I don t know or understand your situation. But if you don t trust me or listen what I say, or mind it... Your situation won t change or find a good issue... Life if long, difficult, with a lot of surprises, from the beginning I never mind selfish, i mind to be nice with you not to get anything in return, but to make you more happy...