I am sorry to hear about your painful past. Hope things will get better for you in the future. I know it is not easy to take care of the kids and work. So I show you my deepest respect. I am sure you are a good mother. My wife was not a good mother. Although she did not work and just stayed at home she did not manage to take care of the kids or the household. Always lazy. At least we did not fight when we broke up. We just decided that it is better for all of us not to live together.