I don't want you to force yourself in what you do not want to do.
I still remember what you had said to me that you have never been to the countries of Asia. So you should go to the country that have the things you love.
You've told me about Japan girl you ever want to invite her to your country.
You take care and handling paperwork about visa for her.
And I guess addition a woman from Holland that you still care then,
You also like the Japan girl too.
So I think you will be happy when you go there than.
Do not care about me.