DEAR DEAR NETTAN
I thank you very much for your love and your and your father's very nice behavior. Thank you also for your last email. I have not read the last email yet. I try to follow my heart, and I don't know yet, but just now I feel I will not read it. It doesn't mean that I will cut every conversation and contact with you. I hope we can be friends. Yes, good and true friends. But regarding to my feelings, I will just now concentrate all my feelings for Puie. Why? God told me that. And in addition to that, I feel that Puie are such an amazing girl and woman for me. Yes, I feel, as I told you earlier, that Puie are the BEST girl and woman for me.
I want to tell you that I feel that I was so good person before. But today I see that Puie are the very very good person. And maybe, I'm not THAT good person compere with Puie.
Nettan, you are such an amazing girl and woman too. Just like Anna. Please try to pray more to GOD and ask for HIS guidance and help regarding to a new boyfriend for you.
And dear Nettan, I want very much to be your friend. Of course. But just now I have to solve my own so true feelings towards dear Puie. And of course I need skin to skin contact so much. Yes, just now, maybe to much? But I have to wait for Puie.
Dear Nettan, I want to keep the contact with you. But just now, I feel it will be wrong. I have also other female friends in both Sweden and Norway, and also in Thailand. They want to be friends only, they all tell me, but I feel that they want to have me as a new boyfriend too. I know I always will be so true to Puie, of course. But I will not visit other friends, because then they MAYBE think I CAN BE a new boyfriend for them. I will absolutely not play with others hearts. Maybe you think I'm stupid. OK, I want to be stupid then. But of earlier experiences I know that 8 of 10 friends want more than friendship, IF they don't have a boyfriend.
Dear Nettan, I will not like if we meet eachother just now, because you have warm feelings for me. It's not wrong. It's natural. It's happen. But I will not going on and have fun with you, when my heart belongs to Puie. It's not true love. And if we meet, and continue to meet, then we all (you, me and Puie) can be so hurt. Please understand me dear Nettan.
Best regards to your father and mother and the rest of your whole family.
I'm very happy, and I feel very privileged if I can have you and all your family as my true friends.
On the pictures you see the flowers outside the church.