Dearest Phum,
Sorry I've been so poor about writing. I assure you it has not been because I have not been thinking about you. In fact, you have been on my mind a great deal.
Here are some of the topics I have been mulling over:
Will I ever get over the intense periods of depression I still experience from the loss of my wife? It's not fair to put you through that. And, it's not something you can cure -- no matter what you do ... It's something neither of us has much control over.
I believe our only hope to be together is in Thailand, and I worry about language, cultural, and technical issues that would be involved in a permanent move there (banking, insurance, etc.).
I also believe it's unfair to burden you with my insomnia issues.
On the other hand, you are the kindest, most interesting, and attractive woman I. have met in many, many years. And, I feel at peace when I am with you.
In short, you are on my mind often. I'm just not sure what I should do. If it is OK with you, I would like to see you again. I wouldn't have to stay with you, but I would like to see what your life is like in Nakhon si Thammarat when you aren't on vacation.
Maybe you are thinking I should be able to decide what I want by now. And, I would not criticize you s for thinking so. But, you deserve my honest thoughts.
Well, that's what I've been thinking.
With love and respect,
Yours always,
Lance
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Dear Phum, Hope your trip to Esan went well. It's been terribly hot here in Redding the past week. I think it's supposed to be 106-108 today. But, by Sunday it should be in the low 90s. I take