i hesitated for a long time
before i began my experiment
only a small mistake in the mixture of the drug could mean immediate death
but in the end my wish to know was stronger than my fear
and so late one disastrous night
i watched the smoke rising from the liquid as it changed colour from red purple and at last to green
then bravely
i drank every
bitter drop
i felt a violent sickness in my stomach and a terrible pain in all my bones
the room seemed to turn round and round and i trembled with fear
then the fear and pain disappeared and strange sweet feeling took its place
wild thoughts danced through my mind