i fell head over heels and he was so beautifully romantic. he wrote me the sweetest letters and put so much thought into everything he made or gave me. as time went on, however, our relationship began to strain. i ended up giving away the one thing i wanted to save for marriage, and it nearly killed me.......in that instant i went from wanting to be with him - to NEEDING to be with him. i became insecure, jealous, and a general emotional wreck. i needed him to validate my mistake, and he wasn't about to do that. however, he had promised to marry me, so i dug my heels in and decided to hang in "till the end" - and hang in i did.