Back from drs had my 2 monthly check up not good bp is still very high and im on the highest tablet to keep it under control but not working,blood test all good,so we had a chat and so it seems its me thats causing the problem( but not really me other people are} so from now what any one think or say about me im not listening im me and my life comes before anything,so if you cant accept me as i am its your problem not mine,biggest down fall is my smoking but if i didnt do that i wouldnt have the nerve to go out,nerves and depression is one of the hardest things in life but if youve never had that problem you wont understand what im going through