I'm truly sorry things ended the way they did all I meant today was I had to leave at 10PM to go home, I wanted to come still because I wanted to spend time with you again...although I couldn't stay all night with you however I wanted badly to see you which is why I still wanted to come
Anyway as I sit here in Pinklao waiting for the bus home I just wanted to write to you to let you know that even though you blocked me and don't want to see me that I waited for you anyway. I am sorry and I feel empty inside to have done this to you, whatever you may think of me I care what I have done to other people and I never intended to make someone I do care for hurt I regard myself as a gentleman and to have done that to you has been playing on my mind a lot. I never planned or wanted for it to happen, in fact that day I had been excited all day to come and see you I had even laid out my clothes on my bed ready to rush home shower and change and come and see you.
Either way I guess it doesn't matter to you anymore I just wanted you to know that I am not a bad man who stood you up because I didn't care. Things at work were crazy and I fell asleep in the office working stupid hours trying to secure a big deal... It doesn't change what I put you through so I am sorry again. I know you probably don't want to ever speak to me again but at least know that I wish you the best in your life, while I cannot promise we would be together because I just don't know right now, I always had in my mind that I wanted to be with you and try to see if our lives were meant to be together, I was always serious about getting to know each other more.
You're a very special person I knew that from the moment we spoke, everything I leart about you made me like and respect the person you are more and more. I hope from the bottom of my heart that you will have a good life because good people like you deserve to have everything the world has to offer.
You said as you blocked me that you loved me...that hurt a lot because I don't know if it's love or not but the connection we had 2 weeks ago was something I had not felt since my ex all those years ago looking into your eyes that night I felt something I cannot explain but it was special for sure. Anyway I know you're a busy girl too I wish you all the best in your studies, be proud of yourself every day knowing that the world is a better place because you are here.
Goodbye Nuan