Moran's book portray this full spectrum. Consider Disk Bogarde , who , having learned how to hide his feelings from bullies at school, likened himself to a hermit crab hiding in a scavenged shell. "I was safe from predators" he wrote "and by predators I meant everyone I met" He had hoped to conquer his shyness in adulthood , but he found it was "a malady" that "crippled me before I walked into a crowded room , theatre , restaurant or bar". Acting in the West End, he would throw-up before every performance , saying "you can't be as frightened as I am now and still be alive.