Blood 1.
Start of the Blood series.
Blood 1 Negishi Akiko
I hate myself.
Well, isn't it so?
My appearance is ugly, and there's no merit that seems to be a merit too.
I'm poor at sports, and I can't study well too.
Although my family can't be said as poor, the economic condition that's a little lower than the average.
With this, I don't have a special characteristic that I can say that I like myself.
Especially, my appearance.
I hate this to death.
Pale skin.
Very thin body.
If I looked at the mirror, the face like a dead person who's cheeks sank and had vacant eyes that looked back at me.
If I open my mouth, the bad tooth of the uneven row of teeth.
Only the cuspid asserts itself excessively in that.
Because of the zombie-like appearance and the long cuspid, the nickname given to me is Vampire.
I was made fun since the elementary school by the boys, and I seriously came to consider people as nuisance in the junior high school.
Bullying began from trifling harassment.
The bad-mouthing intentionally to let me hear, and the backbiting that's whispered.
If it's one by one, it can be endured, but if those accumulate, it will corner a person.
In my case, it turned into anger.
Even though I'm like this, why are the people who have proper appearance like that?
I feel anger in the born difference, and feel anger and jealousy to the people who bullies using that as a shield.
That very dark feelings piled up in my heart.
That's why, it was inevitable that the incident happened.
Judging from the group who bullied me, there might be no intention of bullying at all.
However, they do it because it's interesting.
Only that light feeling.
The people themselves don't know how many people they hurt.
After all, they didn't understand what will happen when it returns to them until they knew it with their own body.
The start was probably caused by the usual trifling bullying.
A dust cloth was thrown at my face during the cleaning time. If I'm not wrong, it was such a thing.
The thing that the pool that accumulated in me bursts at the moment.
Rebuked as Vampire, I bit him as they requested.
I don't remember well the things after that.
The boy bitten by me went to the hospital, and he attended the school bandaged the next day.
It seemed that he would be dead by cutting the artery if one step was wrong.
Fortunately, there seemed to be nothing in the place where I bit, so it was not a serious wound.
I was called by the teacher individually.
In that case, the teacher's attitude was the attitude that doesn't even conceal the aversion like touching a swelling.
I didn't have a penalty even in such a situation.
For the school side, I think that they don't want the scandal that the victim counterattacked on the assailant at the end of bullying to spread.
The boy bitten by me didn't make noise in particular.
I mean, I don't know well about the things later.
Because an informal decision had already decided on Heishin High School at this time and I met the points for graduation, I didn't go to school after that.
Although it might be not good in reality, the school side said nothing to me.
And, I graduated from the junior high school without participating the graduation ceremony.
Let's make a fresh start from the high school.
Although I decided so in my mind, the reality is not so sweet.
My personality that I cultivated until then doesn't change easily just by the environment changed.
The servile personality that I hate myself as usual.
There's no change in appearance too.
It's only in 2D that ugly people can become beautiful by effort.
Or, the foundation to become beautiful.
In my case, I was not able to expect it no matter how hard I work.
It can only be done with plastic surgery.
I have an unchanged zombie-like appearance whereas the surrounding girls grow up, and refined.
I knew that I was called as Real Horror Child, in short Rihoko behind my back.
Although I didn't mind it because I was more modest than the time of the junior high school, still, there was the thing that boiled in the depths of my heart.
It's Wakaba Hiiro who irritates my heart the most.
She hardly takes communication with others in the same way as me.
And yet, she receives the exact opposite evaluation from the surroundings with me.
The difference is the difference of the appearance.
Some girls didn't seem to like it, and rant covered with jealousy.
Whenever I saw it, it's like a mirror was shown and I hated it.
Am I also ugly like those people?
The answer is obvious.
As for me, not only my appearance, but my inside is also ugly.
But, it's not hopeless.
Then, what should I have done?
Would my life be different if my face is good?
The thing that my life was a mistake from the moment when I was born.
Because the appearance is ugly, the inside is not ugly.
Because the appearance is ugly, there's the environment that makes the inside ugly.
The guy who says that "I don't mind the appearance" is merely a hypocrite.
That's the conclusion that I gave.
I want to be reborn.
To a proper appearance this time.
It doesn't need to be a beautiful woman.
I want to become a common appearance at least.
I didn't even think that such escapism was realized.
I'm weak in the morning because of low blood pressure.
I often can't wake up for the first hour of the school's class .
I couldn't support my sluggish body on that day, and fell on the desk.
I hear the voice reciting Okazaki-sensei's classical literature like a lullaby.
Okazaki-sensei is a good person who pays attention to me unlike my class teacher in the junior high school.
I let go of my consciousness while hearing the voice.
When I woke up next, it was an unknown ceiling.
It's not the school's classroom.
It's not the school infirmary either.
Although I fall down several times by anemia and have visited the school infirmary, it's different from the ceiling there.
When I try to stand up and look around the surroundings, it was impossible to do it.
My body doesn't move as I want.
There's no power at all.
In the situation that anything can't be understood, there was something that jumped into view suddenly.
It's the hand.
It's a small, small, hand.
It's totally like a baby's.
I was confused.
เลือด 1จุดเริ่มต้นของชุดเลือดอะกิโกะแห่ง Negishi เลือด 1ฉันเกลียดตัวเองดี ไม่ได้ดังนั้นลักษณะของฉันน่าเกลียด และมีบุญไม่น่าจะเป็นบุญมากเกินไปฉันไม่ดีที่กีฬา และไม่สามารถเรียนดีเกินไปแม้ว่าครอบครัวของฉันไม่สามารถกล่าวว่า เป็นคนยากจน สภาพทางเศรษฐกิจที่น้อยกว่าค่าเฉลี่ยนี้ ไม่มีลักษณะพิเศษที่สามารถกล่าวว่า ฉันชอบตัวเองโดยเฉพาะอย่างยิ่ง ลักษณะของฉันฉันเกลียดนี้ตายผิวซีดร่างกายมากถ้าผมมองที่กระจก หน้าเหมือนคนตายที่ของแก้มจม และมีตาว่างที่กลับมามองที่ฉันถ้าฉันเปิดปากของฉัน ฟันไม่ดีของแถวฟันไม่สม่ำเสมอเฉพาะ cuspid ยืนยันตัวเองมากเกินไปในที่นั้นลักษณะเหมือนผีดิบและ cuspid ยาว ชื่อเล่นให้ผมเป็นแวมไพร์ฉันทำสนุกตั้งแต่โรงเรียนประถมศึกษา โดยเด็กผู้ชาย และฉันมาเพื่อให้คนรำคาญในโรงเรียนสำหรับเด็กมัธยมอย่างจริงจังBullying เริ่มจากเล็ก ๆ น้อย ๆ การเบียดเบียนBad-mouthing ตั้งใจจะให้ฉันได้ยิน และ backbiting ที่เป็นเกมส์ถ้าเรื่องหนึ่งทีเดียว สามารถทน แต่ ถ้าผู้ที่สะสม มันจะมุมคนในกรณีของฉัน มันเปลี่ยนเป็นความโกรธแม้ว่าฉันเป็นเช่นนี้ เหตุใดคนที่มีลักษณะที่เหมาะสมเช่นนั้นฉันรู้สึกโกรธในความแตกต่างเกิด และรู้สึกโกรธและพระกับคน bullies ใช้ที่เป็นความรู้สึกมืด ๆ ที่คั่งในหัวใจของฉันThat's why, it was inevitable that the incident happened.Judging from the group who bullied me, there might be no intention of bullying at all.However, they do it because it's interesting.Only that light feeling.The people themselves don't know how many people they hurt.After all, they didn't understand what will happen when it returns to them until they knew it with their own body.The start was probably caused by the usual trifling bullying.A dust cloth was thrown at my face during the cleaning time. If I'm not wrong, it was such a thing.The thing that the pool that accumulated in me bursts at the moment.Rebuked as Vampire, I bit him as they requested.I don't remember well the things after that.The boy bitten by me went to the hospital, and he attended the school bandaged the next day.It seemed that he would be dead by cutting the artery if one step was wrong.Fortunately, there seemed to be nothing in the place where I bit, so it was not a serious wound.I was called by the teacher individually.In that case, the teacher's attitude was the attitude that doesn't even conceal the aversion like touching a swelling.I didn't have a penalty even in such a situation.For the school side, I think that they don't want the scandal that the victim counterattacked on the assailant at the end of bullying to spread.The boy bitten by me didn't make noise in particular.I mean, I don't know well about the things later.เพราะยังตัดสินใจไม่ได้แล้วตัดสินใจในโรงเรียนมัธยม Heishin ครั้งนี้ และผมได้พบกับสถานการศึกษา ไม่ได้ไปโรงเรียนหลังจากที่ถึงแม้ว่ามันอาจจะไม่ดีในความเป็นจริง ด้านโรงเรียนกล่าวอะไรกับฉันก จบการศึกษาจากมัธยมตอนต้นที่ไม่เข้าร่วมพิธีจบการศึกษาลองทำเริ่มต้นจากโรงเรียนมัธยมแม้ว่าฉันตัดสินใจได้ในความคิด ความเป็นจริงไม่ได้หวานดังนั้นบุคลิกที่ cultivated จนแล้วไม่เปลี่ยนแปลง โดยสภาพแวดล้อมที่เปลี่ยนแปลงง่ายบุคลิกภาพพวกว่า ฉันเกลียดตัวเองตามปกติไม่มีการเปลี่ยนในลักษณะเกินไปมันเป็นเพียงในสองมิติที่คนน่าเกลียดสามารถกลายเป็นสวยงาม โดยพยายามขึ้น มูลนิธิเป็นสวยงามในกรณีของฉัน ฉันไม่สามารถคาดหวังว่าจะไม่ทำงานยากขึ้นเท่านั้นจะทำกับศัลยกรรมผมมีลักษณะเหมือนผีดิบไม่เปลี่ยนแปลงในขณะที่หญิงแวดล้อมเติบโต และบริสุทธิ์ฉันรู้ว่า ฉันถูกเรียกว่าเป็นเด็กน่ากลัวจริง ในการ Rihoko สั้นหลังของฉันแม้ว่าฉันไม่ได้รังเกียจมัน เพราะผมเจียมเนื้อเจียมตัวมากขึ้นเวลาสำหรับเด็กมัธยม ยัง มีสิ่งที่ต้มในส่วนลึกของหัวใจของฉันHiiro บะที่ระคายเคืองหัวใจมากที่สุดได้เธอแทบจะสื่อสารกับผู้อื่นในลักษณะเดียวกับฉันและยัง เธอได้รับแน่นอนตรงกันข้ามการประเมินผลจากสภาพแวดล้อมด้วยข้อแตกต่างคือ ความแตกต่างของลักษณะที่ปรากฏSome girls didn't seem to like it, and rant covered with jealousy.Whenever I saw it, it's like a mirror was shown and I hated it.Am I also ugly like those people?The answer is obvious.As for me, not only my appearance, but my inside is also ugly.But, it's not hopeless.Then, what should I have done?Would my life be different if my face is good?The thing that my life was a mistake from the moment when I was born.Because the appearance is ugly, the inside is not ugly.Because the appearance is ugly, there's the environment that makes the inside ugly.The guy who says that "I don't mind the appearance" is merely a hypocrite.That's the conclusion that I gave.I want to be reborn.To a proper appearance this time.It doesn't need to be a beautiful woman.I want to become a common appearance at least.I didn't even think that such escapism was realized.I'm weak in the morning because of low blood pressure.I often can't wake up for the first hour of the school's class .I couldn't support my sluggish body on that day, and fell on the desk.I hear the voice reciting Okazaki-sensei's classical literature like a lullaby.Okazaki-sensei is a good person who pays attention to me unlike my class teacher in the junior high school.I let go of my consciousness while hearing the voice.When I woke up next, it was an unknown ceiling.It's not the school's classroom.It's not the school infirmary either.Although I fall down several times by anemia and have visited the school infirmary, it's different from the ceiling there.When I try to stand up and look around the surroundings, it was impossible to do it.My body doesn't move as I want.There's no power at all.In the situation that anything can't be understood, there was something that jumped into view suddenly.It's the hand.It's a small, small, hand.It's totally like a baby's.I was confused.
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