I don't have the strength of mind as same. I know that from now on I need take time for others more. And in the past I tried several times. I know it doesn't help. It's not make me happy like stay with you. I know my mind. Even if I don't see you for a period of 1 week. But If there is only just one of your letter send for me. It makes me feel better to talk with others every day.