Thank you Saai. If I go onto a ship, it will be good to gain experience at the next level of employment: a little more supervision and supervisor role. More responsibility and safety. All good though! :)
My job requires you to do a little run and 10 push ups. I want to be big like other New Zealand guys. They (mostly) all big and muscular. I am tall yet not big. I am like a tooth pick! haha.
I don't think it is confidence, be like Rocky (without the bruised face) haha