I didn't understand what they were thinking.
To become like my brother that I feared, hated, and scorned.
I didn't want to be like him.
But, more than that, I was frustrated.
My brother, like my little sister, was above me in everything.
He was an existence that I could not hope to reach no matter how much effort I put in.
Even though I hated him.
Even though I disdained him.
But,I was an existence that was lower than even him.