He takes a deep breath, but even that hurts…He swallows…it hurts more… Distracting himself is not enough…the wound is still fresh. E looks up again and just wants to be anywhere else. Yamaguchi is leaning close to him…no…why…why does he have o see this… He must act as usual; he cannot let the others know how miserable he feels….
He gets up and starts walking away from the rest of the group. When. Azuma ask where he’s going h simply replies, “I feel sick…I’ll go…rest, sorry.” Walking away slowly, he misses the worried look on everyone’s face. Slowly, he drags his feet to his room…it’s weird, every ounce of energy in his body has left now…right now he just wants to sleep…
E is greeted with silence once he enters his room, but it’s okay, he didn’t expect anything else. Throwing himself on his bed, he closes his eyes and tries to breathe calmly… His mind tells him he’s got no reason to hate Yamguchi…but he just keeps thinking of how Tanaka’s words are to her and not to him. He tries to convince himself that he’s happy for them, but it would be better if they just broke up. "Stop it" He hisses at himself…this is just ridiculous. He’s feeling so wrecked and it probably is his fault…if only he have had the courage to tell Tanaka first maybe he could’ve been happy this time… How long had it been since he felt happy….? Too long ago.